Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Sensitive..


wats d definition of sensitive?
anyone can tell me d diff between sensitive, caring, trust, sweet, complaine?
their def is so obviously diff but for me..it is related..it depend on how u define it..
u think i m sensitive but i think it is because of ur less caring...
u think i m sensitive but i juz don really trust u...
u think i m sensitive but i juz cant really feel tat i m in love..
u think i like to complaine, but i juz express out my true feeling..
i think i like to complaine, but i juz wan to discuss with u...

i understand tat everyone's perception on diff things or words is diff...
but i really feel very down when u say like tat..
even ur frens, think d same way...
if u think they really understand me very well..juz go ahead listen to them...
ask urself, ask ur heart..did i act d way in tat situation juz like ur fren said?!

i admit tat sometimes i am sensitive, but it is becoz u din giv me enuf confidence,
u din give me enuf love, i feel unsecure..
think wat u did in d past.....
think wat d pain u brought to me..
u may think tat is a PAST...
i should not to think back...
but for me tat is a LESSON..
u can forget it easily,
i CAN'T..can't at all...
all d past make me get into crazy thinking..
n tat make both if us suffer..
we feel tired..
is it d end for our relationship?
n tell me why..
why until today,
u still don understand wat i really wan?
i told u thousand times..
but u never put in heart..
u tk it as I LIKE TO COMPLAINE..
wat i wan is just simple,
i just wan ur "heart"...
although i know u love me,
but u more love ur work,ur family, ur frens...
who am i in ur heart?
y i have to always understand, care ur feeling but not u r the one to care my feeling..
u promised, will make me happy n wont bring sadness to me..
but u always d one who make me disappointed most...

but..i still don wan to give up easily..i noe it is really a hard time for us.. but i don wan regret in future...although i really feel bad..but if our story end, will i be happy? even myself oso cannot guarantee...i still need u to let me express out my feeling..


izit..izit very hard to reach happiness?

Friday, June 01, 2007

Moody..



walau..damm boring..kinda moody.. no frens r free to accompany me.. even if they r free, don have transport oso.. sigh..i edi bek for more than 1 month edi.. but i seldom meet my frens oso.. 1 of d reason is i have to work on weekend.. sigh... worry tat all d frens not so close edi.. T_T i don wan tis happen..it is getting harder n harder to gather together.. i really mizz them a lots..

thinking when only i can meet them????????