My Precious~


sad sad sad... lost my precious...
earing a earing..pls..don hide edi.. fast fast appear in front of me..
today..i found out tat i lost 1 earing..my platinum wif a small small lil diamond earing.. it is a gift from my godmom n godsis.. i like it very very much~ T_T
i really hope i can find it back..

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last weekend i work at tesco sg. petani, kedah.
it is a new experience for me..
coz i need to stay at my colleague's hostel..
darn not use to it...
so suffer ler..
2 days working make me tired like hell...
juz don noe y..
maybe d situation..
feel so stress..
n feel stranger to d place n ppl...
i m d only part-time promoter from RVT...
others r i-gate staff..
feel weird..
but i tell myself..
it is becoz i still got my market value..
tats y i m here...
but..how can they lower d salary?!
somemore no commission?
it makes me feel not worth for working so hard..
but..i still did my best for them..
n we almost hit d target..is really almost...
juz left 0.01%..
cheers for us~
mizz my penang hse..miz my hsemates..
ahahaha~
n my hsemates r really sweet...
i m glad tat i got d good hsemates..
hehe!
coz yesterday i bek to penang at midnight..
i quite scare to take lift alone at midnight..
so i got ask my roommate to accompany me..
but wat suprise me is my hsemates..
they come down together to welcome me..
hahahaa~
quite touch ler..
thanks ya~
coz tat time is around 3am..
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i really miss those days i work at 1u..
although tat period really tiring n i work for 4 days..
but i really enjoy...is enjoy..
even i hope d fair wont end so early..
tat is a good experience for me..
i think not only for me..
is for all my colleagues oso..
coz till today..
they still talking about d fair..
discussing how great we are..
i m glad i got d chance to work for i-gate...
coz i learn a lot..a lot..
n i make new frens..
although not really close..
but i learn a lot from them..
n i respect some of them..
they r really good in sales..
n d sales within tat week...i mean tat fair..
is much more than d target..
amazing ya!
i think d boss of i-gate sure laugh like hell..
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i quite enjoy my life now...
LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST...
tat is wat i m trying to do now...
n doing d best i can..

L O N E L I N E S S

both of my roommate leave me alone n go hav fun wif their frens n family..
>.<
feel lonely, boring n scare..
coz never sleep alone in this room yet..
seriously, i feel tat myself is useless...
i scare to take lift alone..
i scare to swim alone...
i scare to sleep alone in other place..
although sometimes i love to be alone..
but i ll feel scare too....
i ll think many many...
think wrongly...

wat am i gonna to do d whole day?
don noe..
mood so down...
i wish i got mood to study hard now...
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T I R E D

being a human really very tiring...
being a good human more tiring...
i m not saying tat i m good...
but sometimes..
i really feel tired for being d ppl tat always make d others laugh at..
when hanging out wif frens..
i like to be crazy...
to make all of us laugh crazily..
but it is tired..
especially those fren tat not really can fool, or play wif...
u think i really like to be siao zha bo?
u think i really love to be like a clown?
make u guys laugh at me n den bully me?
i admit tat sometimes i really crazy...
but i still know wat is d limit...
y always wan bully me?
y always wanna fool me?
y i always have to fulfil u guys wish?
y i always have to take care of u guys feeling?
Y NOBODY REALLY TAKE CARE OF MY REAL FEELING.................


NORMALLY, i wont show u my sad face..
NORMALLY, i wont show u my angry face..
because, i don wan u to be d same mood wif me at d moment..
because, i respect u...
because, i hope u r happy...
but, i hate ppl tat r SELFISH!

NEW ENVIRONMENT, NEW LIFE, NEW BEGINNING, NEW EXPERIENCE....



It is 2nd day at my new house at penang... not tooooo bad.. but not really good oso...
many things still not yet finish cleaning n packing... damm messy now... but it is much more better than the school hostel.. hahahah~

miss my home, my family, my buddies n frens, my dear very very much...
really miss...
me become stronger than wat i've tot... really...

i din take japanese this semester.. coz over unit edi... so sad.. coz i really like japanese n hope i can speak japanese very well...

tats all for today.. gonna clean d balcony now.. ai! lazy + tired man...

FUTURE....


no one can predict wat will be in d future..
no one can decide their future...
future is out of our control...

we only can try our best to work for a better future...
but we cannot decide it..
they r too many unpredictable things happen...
wat i know is live ur life to d fullest n appreciate everything tat u r having.....

i don noe whether u will be in my future,
i oso don noe whether i will be in ur future...
wat i noe is i really appreciate d life tat we r sharing rite now..
my heart really so pain when u say i can n should find a better man...
i wonder since when ur thinking become so negatively..
since when u become so lack of confidence...
u said they r many guys out there much more better than u..
tat time i only realise n understand tat y u giving me so much freedom..
wat u wan is i can find a better man..
u understand tat i love u so much..
so u r giving me d chance to meet d other guy..
let me don out so much attention on u..
let me "fly"...
u said u r useles...
not match me...
u feel stress coz u think u r not enuf qualification for me..

dear....
i noe,
my background had bring a lot of stress for u..
but u oso noe i never look down on u rite?
u choose to use another way to love me.. for my own good..
i feel so pain..deep in my heart...
u hav no confidence for our future coz u think u cant do it..
u think i should not juz follow a guy like u..
u think i should get a better man..
dear,
sorry..
u r trying so hard to fullfill my demand..
n tat make u so stressful...
sorry....

i noe..they many guys tat r much more better than u..
but u r d one tat always lead me to d right way..
u r d one tat is my bestest fren in my life..
u r d one tat i wan to share all d happiness n sadness in my life..
u r d one tat love me lots...
n d most important is..
u r d one tat i love most...

our road getting hard n harder to go through...
but i hope we can still holding hand wif hand,
go through all d challenges..

i juz wan to let u noe tat...
u r not d best guy in d world,
but u r d best for me..
wat i wan is a guy treat me sincerely,
not their money..their knowledge...

anyway, don regret..
since u wan me to like tat..
since u said time can heal d pain...
don regret tat giving me d opportunity n freedom...
don regret if u giv up me so easily...
i juz don wan u to regret...
u really think tis is d better way..?

future, is a mystery...

MY FIRST SEM BREAK...




few days later i m goin back to penang..start my 2nd year at USM.. time passes really fast... feel so sad when think tat wanna go back.. gonna miss my bed very much very much... goin back to d life tat full or assign n exam soon... goin back to the life tat without my car.. goin back to d life tat hav to walk a lot a lot.. goin back to d life tat I DON'T LIKE...

i m quite satisfy wif wat i did in tis holiday..at least, i think i din waste d time.. i went genting highland, went kenyir lake, went pulau redang, n i work.. learn a lot of things from my job.. get to know more frens... social life r complicated... really...

anyway...i really very glad tat i got d chance to get tis job n learn a lot of things.. knowledge tat money cant buy.. friendship tat money cant buy... n this job make me know more about myself.. at least..i know wat i can do..at least..i know i m not tat useless...

besides..this holiday let me knoe more about human being...some ppl r really sellfish.. they never think about others feeling.. although i get hurt...but i told myself i should thank u...n i ll tk it as a lesson...