Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Battle Start~



now is 1.ooam...
8 more hours i m goin to start my battle.. ESTHER VS SKW122..
cham..damm scare now..left some haven't finish but i cant continue edi..
but..still cant sleep..
HELP!

don noe wat d hell happen to my memory space...
d second time i read oso cant really memorise~

okla..
juz wan to stress out some feeling here...
wanna sot jor~
time is running~
yet i m dreaming~

yo yo~
got to add oil!

ganbatte kudasai!

n good luck to all my frens tat r struggling too~

Sunday, October 28, 2007

讨厌


你突如其来的来电。。。原本还蛮惊喜,结果却令我的心情跌入谷底!相信你是感觉到我的不满,才又再打来试探我的心情。。。原本真的不想接,但又怕稍后还要找借口解释,好麻烦,所以才接了。但并没让你多说,冷淡的叫你去忙你的事就盖了。。我感觉到,我心中的怒火已在酝酿着。。。

最近总有一种怪怪的感觉,是我压力太大而多心么?我希望我是,但你奇怪以及犹豫的反应及回答却令我觉得即将发生一些事。。。对你的信任,慢慢累积回来的安全感好像又要离开了。。。
我不再是以前那个无知单纯的小女孩。这,你是懂的。多亏了你,擦亮了我的眼睛,开启了我心中那道防人的门,给了我刻骨铭心课程训练。。虽然还不至于精,但对于你,已是难以应付的对象。如他所说的,"你以为你懂,其实你不懂"。我想告诉他,"其他人或许我不懂,但你,我比其他人更懂。" 也想对自豪的他说 :"真的,不要小看我"。

如果你不想火山爆发,就希望你能聪明点,但。。我想,你这个猪头,没我的明示,是不了解我在想什么的。。。说真的,你很失败。

讨厌你,
害我没心情读书了~
心血来潮

今天早上起来得比较早, 本来已对自己说不要开电脑了。。。因为会读不到书嘛。可是却突然心血来潮,想写东西。。。

可是却不知要写什么。。哈哈!

我要感谢赖嘉雯,呵呵!因为她帮我改了部落格的面貌。。。谢啦。。老友! :P

对了,最近黑眼圈很深噢~ 沮丧噢~

还有,我要减肥!我要穿无袖衣!我要屁股翘翘,24寸腰。。努力!

脑袋空空了。。。

好无聊的一篇心血来潮的文章~

Saturday, October 27, 2007

乏味的生活

这星期即将结束了。。。
意味着恐怖的考试就要来临。。。
也意味着我即将陷入苦战。。。
(怕怕。。。)

乏味。。
是我对这个星期的最佳形容词。。。
早上起床喝了牛奶就翻下书。。。
然后就坐在书桌前呆呆的对着电脑。。。
上下网。。
下载动画剧。。
和好友说下废话。。。
然后吃午餐。。。
再继续同样的事情。。。
到了大概三四点。。。
关电脑读书,
睡午觉一小时,
起来运动流汗。。。
然后冲凉和吃晚餐。。。
再继续上网看戏读书。。。
日复一日~
唉。。。
两个字 + 一个字, 乏味+闷!

近来都不喜欢和不熟的人聊天。。。
所以我通常都会放"下线"。。。
因为实在不想应酬一些亲戚。。。
(因为我不懂要聊什么,干脆隐形)
而且,
也不想让那些无谓的人打扰。。。

近来迷上了日本动画
<火影忍者>
其实几年前就已经在看它的漫画了。。。
现在看动画~赞!

说真的。。
我就来成为宅女了!
朋友都一直叫我出去晒太阳。。。
不然就要发霉了~
哈哈哈!

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Auto City



Yesterday night...
i went auto city wif my housemates..
it is a high-class place..
we had our dinner at Segafredo..
erm..
is a nice place to hav a drink..
lolz~


den we went to see those place like "lantern festival"
but very boring lar..
n hot..
we juz simply tak a few pics den leave edi..
d entry ticket cost rm7.50 leh..
so how boring n not nice oso muz take few pics..
hehehehe~


after that..
we went Halo Cafe to yam cha...
having fun there ler..
coz d singer there oso graduate from USM.. =_="

tat night..
i realise tat i only left 1 n d half years at penang..
haha~
wonder how many chances left to having fun wif my coursemates n housemates ler..
but deep in my heart..
i miss my kl's buddies more lar.. hehehe! really wan o~

seriously..
i started to love stay away from house..
n go bek once a while..
quite used to it edi..
it makes me more appreciate d time wif my family..
n decrease d arguement...
although i really miss my mom's cook..
hehehe~

n d short distance..
make me more appreciate my boy..
although sometimes i really miss him like crazy..
but..
i know we are appreciating n supporting each other..
i feel it..

recently..
i start to love penang..
wat a happening island..
hahaha~
although i really hate d way they act on d road..
but d culture there..
quite attract me..
somehow..
i start to eat asam laksa n tom yam which i seldom eat before..
n i m trying my best to learn hokkien..
lolz~

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

=6 hours=


today i went gurney red box again..
wif my usm's frens..
we sang from 1pm to 7pm..(2 hours extra for us)
although very enjoy..
but very very tiring lar~

now only realise tat my coursemates r really very crazy too~
really~
crazier than my kl's gang..
they jump here n there..
n dance + shout like siao kia..
n i found someone same wif shittie..
sing d MP4's song.. (lou dao mai sok k)
lolz!

mizz my kl's fren much much~
looking forward to our gathering~
i mean.. OUR~

Monday, October 08, 2007

dear sin chee..
happy 21st birthday o~
Sick~


i had sick for a week edi...
n still haven't recover yet..
n my boy sick too...
make me very worry about him..
coz he seldom sick..
once he is sick..
he will be quite ill..
n yea.. i m right..
he really quite ill..
n wat a weird sick..
he get fever..
but his stomach pain for few days too..
>_<



everytime his is sick..
i will be moody..
all the day..
i will be in the worry mood too..


everytime his is sick..
i feel that he forget me edi..
coz he don like to talk to d phone..
don like to sms..
no matter how many messages i sent him...
maybe..
he will just reply me once..
for d whole day..
n with the short n simple message..
do i demand too much?



i m sick..
he is too...
but when he is sick..
he will forget that i m sick too..
thats y..
i wish that he will recover soon..
to let me feel d love n cares again..



yesterday..
when i call him..
his mom answered d phone..
coz he is sleeping..
n u noe wat..
his mom can hear tat my voice r diff..
yea..she noe i m sick too..
n ask me to take care..
tat time..
my feeling r so complicated..
i felt warm..
yet i felt cold..
coz his mom r d one who notice tat i m still sick..
but not him..

after he wake up...
i think his mom told him that i sick..
so he sms me n ask me to rest more..
sigh..
y men r like this?



i really hate when he is sick..
coz everytime he is sick..
i realise that there r very much diff between us..
shows tat i love him, i care him much more than he do..
or is it just d diff between gals n guys?
i don't know..



i still remember when d very first time he get very ill...
is he get chicken pox..
that time i am having my stpm..

i still remember..
there r nobody at his home..
his parents r out for working..
his sis r oversea..
no one take care of him..
n he is really quite ill..



d 1st day i go visit him..
d moment i saw him..
my tears really drop...
really..
coz my heart feel so pain when i saw him like very suffer...
n d pox..
frightened me..
he don let me to go near him..
but i did it oso..
i hug him..
n tears drop..
coz my heart so pain..



during tat period..
i go his house to take care of him..
right after exam..
he din talk much to me..
coz he is ill..
i just help him wif lunch n rent some vcd to him..
so that he wont be so boring..



d 2nd time he is ill..
is last year..
he get denggi..
tat time i m at penang...
he had fever for few days..
n only know he get denggi after d 2nd blood test ( if i m not mistaken)
i still rmb d scenery..
i m at usm bus..
i called him..
his parents answer..
telling me that he is in hospital..
coz denggi..
i wan like..OMG~

den d nex day..
i straight away go bek kl..
ask his fren to fetch me to grand eagle hospital..
n tat night..
i overnight at hospital..
accompany him..
take care of him..



i m not showing off..
but those is my scary memories..
everytime he is ill..
i really scare to lost him..
i rather i m d one who sick..
i really think that so..
n i m selfish..
i need his love n care..
so..
i rather i m d one who sick..
Anonymous~



I have leave comment to his blog..
n he reply me wif a smile n thanks me for reading his blog..
yea.. i admit.. i m happy~

but in his blogspot's blog..
i totally not dare to leave comment wif my blogspot's acc..
i am worrying..
tat he will click to my blog n see wat i wrote about him..
worrying he ll know i admire him..
*shy shy*
i just hope to be d reader of his blog..
coz i really enjoy reading his writing..
never tot to be d real friend oso..
so..
i leave wif d name " anonymous"
n he do reply me..
thanks for sharing my thinking wif him...
n asking me who am i..
i struggle again..
tell or not tell..
n once again..
i decide to leave wif d name anonymous again..
but i told him my name..
n he send a smile n thanks me again to my friendster acc...

Saturday, October 06, 2007





















I found u~


today...
i just simply click to my senior's blog..
n i found a guy name yuan tat comment on his blog..
n i just simply click on it..
n u noe wat i saw?!
d primary photo is a guy smile so happily..cant see d eyes..
really attract me..really~


den i click to his pics..
OMG! is him..
a guy tat i meet before..
a guy tat i mention in my blog before...
a guy tat i always kap before....
a guy tat i always met him in d bus stop...
a guy tat i always saw him at my hostel's cafe (last time)
a guy tat i saw him few times walk to d school..
a guy tat attract me deeply..

n i view his blog..
wow~
u noe wat...
i think i really admire him man...
he is so talented in writing...
he is d 1st guy tat i found out love to read novels n even write some short novels...
n his short novels really touching me... (i swear, not becoz of his looks)
i totally admire his talent..
his personality juz add d marks..
hahahaha!
n tell u guys..i really love to read novels too~

he is like..my dream guy.. hahahaha!
but i think i really just admire him..from d bottom of my heart...
i din expect to be his friend or even got d chance to let him noe about me...
coz.. it is a dream tat too far for me...
i will just be d gal tat view his writing n try to understanding him by his blog...

no worries... i still love my boy...


zi yuan,
a guy tat i really fall in love with his smile n talented...
http://tw.starq.com/newstar2/okstarq.php




整體性格
Esther小姐,衝勁十足,志向遠大;,乾脆利落,上進心很強;也有溫和順從,見機行事,善解人意的一面。

待人性格
Esther小姐待人:有情有義;既喜歡與人同樂也能樂於獨處;擅長表達落落大方;沒什麼排他性;不和人分享秘密會覺得難過。

處世性格
Esther小姐處事:有主見但不強迫別人;擇善固執;有立場也能妥協;不拘泥細節;兼顧理想和實際;妥善計劃有序行事。

性格缺點
Esther小姐性格的缺點為:不夠細心馬虎草率;有時候快人快語不懂自我防衛;偶爾會讓人感覺不夠熱情。

價值觀
Esther小姐重視的價值觀為:自由自在;善用時間;傳播真理;較不擅長:微枝末節;節儉守財;親暱黏膩。

愛情性格
Esther小姐在愛情上不喜歡拖拖拉拉的進展步調,不很重視浪漫,會吃醋但不嚴重;較常表現:熱情主動,狂野奔放,堅持原則,古怪精靈。

金錢性格
Esther小姐的金錢觀:花錢很得體不浪費也不小氣,喜歡按照計劃用錢;容易把錢用於:滿足自我,探索新奇,享受生活,追求新潮。

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Accident



Accident...a scary word for me...
just now.. my fren sms ask me am i ok...coz he saw my car like crash edi..
i was like...OMG! it muz be my mom or bro..most probably should be my bro coz he juz get his "P"...
n i call bek...ask her got anything happen anot..she say NO... >_<
den i straight away ask who bang d car..
she was like....suprise! suprise tat i noe..hahahaha!
n d truth is.. my bro did it! ppl in front emergency brake..so he go n bang ppl's ass... ai.. luckily he is safe~ but my car... wuwuwuwuwuwu!
act since he get d license..i edi guess this ll happen..juz din expect it happened so fast.. wahahahaha!
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today is d end of my tough period in tis sem...
all presentations, mid term exams n assignments r DONE!
unfortunately..i m sick...
Damm it!
sigh...
n i feel very boring ler!!!!!!!!!
nothing i can do unless start my reading for d final..
yet..i m lazy! kekekekeke!
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last month... 9 / 9 / 07...
i attend sui yuen's wedding dinner...
a guy who is d 1st to hold my hand...
had married...
although he is edi "a past"
but..still got a lot of complicated feeling when i attend his wedding dinner...
especially shake hand wif him n wish him...not sad..erm...juz dunno how to describe it..
but of course...i really wish he will be happy n full wif hapiness...sincerely...
wish he ll be a good daddy ya!

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recently..
i feel that i really miss my old fren vy much..
keep on viewing d pics tat save in my laptop...
mizz d great time i have wif my buddies...
quite a long time din gather wif them...
because our holiday r diff...cant hav d chance to meet...
anyway..
i still wanna wish kar mun n teng seng happy belated birthday...
hope u guys like d pressie...
n i oso wan to say sorry..
coz i think i brought d wrong pressie...for teng seng.. forgiv me..i really dunno ur SIZE...
for kar mun... i hope nex time i can get another pressie tat u like...i ll try... sorry ya!

chiann yien, seed yian, may wan.... i mizz u guys lots....
n oso for Vc, yen , jx n pyan... looking forward to meet y guys soon...
n of course for sheau huei tat is far far away fom us..
wish she is fine there....