Sick Sick..


arrrgh...not feeling well again ler..damm useless la..if i m not mistaken..since i come here... is d third or fourth time i sick... aiseh.. tis few days i eat very healthy liao la..our canteen only open at 4pm so my breakfast juz an apple n lunch eat bread or biscuit..dinner go outside eat chinese food..n everyday drink 4.5l water... y still will sick geh... n everyday eat vitamin C oso wo.. so bad la..

today early morning around 6.30am tat fella seng sms me make me awake! juz wanna complaine tat din say or wish him anything coz he go back to spore..aiseh~ T_T then i reply him tat tat day i came back here he oso say nth la..u noe wat d fella answer me?! he said he is go 'oversea',n i m still at m'sia.. really zha dou... oh man..i m sorry coz din wish u anything..busy wif exam ma.. somemore i really forget yesterday is thursday.. but u big liao la.. u r rite, u 'over d sea' n study..but spore is near oso..d distance from spore to kl oso almost same from penang to kl..i oso need to 'over sea' leh..i oso need to across d penang bridge! juz tat i no need passport mer.. don action la u.. kekeke... n u r big boy liao la...me always go back alone la..nobody send me to bus station, nobody fetch me from pudu.. i walk alone n find transport to bus station here n go back kl..after reach kl oso need to take lrt n ktm..my parents only fetch me home from kepong only..even when i come back here..sometimes i oso need to take ktm n lrt to pudu myself..n take public bus to USM.. all is ALONE...

today morning got statistik paper again...40 objective... i think this time really 'die'.... not enuf time to do ar~ most of d ques need to count many n think so long(coz i m situpid >,<)..when d lecturer say 'left 5 mins'.. i still got more than 10 ques tat not yet do! so nervous la..make me cant think properly.. ai.. tot wanna get higher marks but impossible lo..

1 month later final exam edi..so scare..

moody day...

today really not happy ler.. i get my sains politic n statistik de results.. very bad.. although statistik quite gd but i m not satisfy..coz my fren better than me but yet they tell me they don noe how to do..she get 39/40!!! n i only get 35... is juz very simple de statistik ler..
n sains politic..i m shame of my results.. ai...cant blame..i din study ler..

n today my ansos tutor (oso my ansos lecturer) don noe y so crazy..he halau me to attend tutorial coz i m late 15 mins~! wtf! last time he always say nvm if late..as long as u attend.. wtf! i noe i m wrong oso coz late but all is bcoz of d bus driver oso la.. d driver stop at RST there n take a nap! if he din 'rest' for so long den i wont late de! aiseh..wat can i say..i not dare to scold back ler..later d lecturer don let me take exam.. den i juz leave d class wif shame.. really very 'yu'.. i had nvr been in tis situation b4~! tat time my tears really wanna burst out liao.. plus my results r not good.. as last my tears oso drop when i tell HIM..ai.. really feel myself very useless ler.. i really don noe i can do well in uni anot..coz uni''s life is not like secondary school's life..my results cannot be bad! must at least average..is at least! if not how am i goin to tell my parents about my results?! how am i going to tell them i pak to edi n ask them don worry coz tis wont affect my studies but yet show them my bad results?! ai~ is stressful man.. i really..USELESS...

then after kena halau..i sms my fren ask them after class sms me..n i walk walk walk to usm gate..n soon..my reply me tat they r finish class edi! wat d hell..tutorial 1 hour n d lecturer only teach (or maybe talk nonsense) for half an hour..?! clevernya.. den after meet up wif my frens..they tell me they oso get scold coz late 10 mins..but din kena halau..n say d lecturer really don noe y so sot.. i guess maybe puasa gua... they cant drink cant eat..so bad temper lo~ haha~


juz now my male fren told me tat d hostel tat i live last time got rape case! juz happened last week or 2 weeks ago~ n tat hostel is quite near d hostel tat i m living now..
really scary me ler...
n i heard many news about got 'bin tai lou' curi tengok gals while they bathing..u noe.. is really scary me.. m'sia is really unsecure... hate la.. really pity those victims..is really whole-life-nightmare!

haha...long time din update my blog..coz quite lazy..n many things happened but i don noe how to write it..

last thursday nite i back to kl again..at first friday only back coz got eco group meeting..final meeting..but then after pass all d doc to my fren..n ask her to remind those pig to do d assign gd gd...den i rush back to kl..haha..coz go back earlier can sleep 1 more nite at home ma..my bed is d best! hohoho

sat noon..me n those form 6 buddies went for neway.. mou mou din go..so bad la..aiseh..v only got 2 hours to sing..really not enuf..n d food..not delicious as 1st time i go..so..shit..
haha..but is quite fun oso ler..at least i m very happy to meet them.... although i m having some prob.. anyway..everything is over.. but is really hard to being a good ppl, good fren, good gal, good gf...... sometimes really wanna juz don care so much n juz be d bad character.... i think i really ll be crazy one day later coz stand too much.. but no choice..coz tat is my choice.. HA HA HA... my boy say i m stupid..n i think so..but if let me to choose to let myself feel better or let ppl gd..i mostly choose to let other ppl to feel better..i m not showing off tat i m gd or wat..but juz wanna shout out tat i m very 'nan zuo'.. act i really very admire those ppl dare to scold ppl or shout out whenever they r not 'song'... coz i not dare..i cant scold smoothly when i m angry..n end up i ll lose..haha..tats y i juz 'ren'... therefore.. i only put temper to my boy..haha..but i ll say sorry soon..aiseh..really useless.. unless ppl 'wat' me den i ll b very 'fire'!! tat time really very fierce de!

erm..go back to sat..
after sing k n take sticker photo.. i bought 7 slices of diff flavour de chocolate cake to celebrate my 2 buddies birth..mun n seng...maybe they ll think tat is weird but i really wan something 'special'..erm..hope they don mind...

really happy to meet them...

fiuh...at last i finish my assignments 98% edi...juz not yet print out n binding...n all d mid sem exam over...hohoho!!! no need so worry liao..but actually i noe tis time de exam i did it badly..coz i din read much..i juz tembak all d question n at d end i noe i will 'die' coz din aim d answer.. ahahaha!

tis weekend i m goin to go back KL n meet my old frens..feel so excited but worry oso..coz at first i m planning to go back on friday early morning but yesterday i only rmb tat i got eco assign meeting at friday noon...tis is d final meeting n might take a long time...so i m wondering when i can go back..n i m worry how to organise d saturday gathering..aiseh...coz today my fren told me tat she cant attend...some more no transport..aiseh..fan fan fan..

my roommate came back today early morning..around 8 oso..aiseh..when she went out or come back oso make me wake up..noisy..haha~ but pity her la..she so sick ler..until today still not yet fully recover..hope she can be more healthy ler...i m so happy tat she is back coz i no need to sleep alone edi lo! hehe

Today my roommate's mom came to visit her coz she sick edi..Her mom came early early at d morning! around 8am gua..fiuh...me yesterday slept at 3am leh.. i din bother them but her mom voice really loud..as u noe..aunty voice is like tat..becoz always scold children n tawar-menawar at market..so edi forget how to talk softly..haha!! den d aunty bring my fren go c doc n my roommate wont come back sleep at hostel for few days..she go over night wif her mom..so now i m alone..don noe later can sleep alone anot..erm..quite scary ler..

today is a busy day..i rush my assign right after wake up till noon..den eat lunch wif fren n den go back room study for half an hour n den rush to d exam hall n sit for my science politic's paper..erm..really don noe how to do..i juz 'tembak' n i sure i will 'mati' in tis paper..haha!!

After my eco tutorial class..i went out to d shoplot there coz my frens went cc find info for assign..n i bought some mee cup n eggs..hehe! (add egg in mee cup more healthy a bit n delicious ma... while waiting for my frens..i oso surf net.. n i check out shit's blog..tis is d 1st time i saw her blog..herm..her life there really more cham than me ler..no WATER!! how can be like tat ?! aiseh..Malaysia..really sucks...n 2 things tat my environment same wif her is here really got many cats...!i hate cats too..but d malays like it..n after saw her blog..i oso realise tat i din see dog here..haha! Cats here very scary de..they run very fast..always fight wif each others, n climb up to d trees! n sometimes they ll jump up to ur table while u eating in d canteen...sucks man..n they ll 'sleep' on d sofa in d living room.. really hate it...
another is d malay gals here like to half naked..they juz use d towel to cover their 'slim' body n walk along d corridor to d washroom..i tot ISLAM very 'old thinking'...but seems like not really...although is gals hostel..but i oso not dare like tat leh..coz sometimes got man come to gals hostel to repair things de leh..

shit..y u always say i din choy u n forget u..u r d one who forget me la! baka...

after having dinner..we walk back to USM..but i don wan walk back to hostel.. quite far n i edi very tired...but my frens wanna walk..they very crazy de la..macam never walk before..so i alone take uni's bus..while i reach bus stop..u noe wat?! oh man..is a handsome guy tat i always kap before! haha~ really very leng zai de! is not de 1st time i same bus wif him le..i think edi got 3 times le ba..u noe..is not easy to meet n same bus wif a person always coz got so many student here n many bus...i still rmb d first time i meet him is i sit beside him in d bus..tat time my heart oso beat very fast.d second time oso same bus n i saw him fall asleep..although he is sleeping tat time..but still..very handsome!!! no xin kar de la.. then i meet him few times in d bakti permai canteen there..coz only there got chinese food..then tis is d 3rd time same bus again...haha! d climax is while i standing back to him, he turn his head back to me n giv me a smile! hohoho~ tat time i really wanna fly up to d sky liao lu.. after giv him my cute smile..i immediately call my fren tat left me alone juz now tell them i meet him! haha..let them jealous ler coz they oso kap him de la..haha! i really not xin ka..he really handsome..some more heard tat he oso 1st year de..taking math course...wow..clever guy...n he not like d noti type guy..n not d stubborn type oso..erm..like high educated n rich looks..n gentleman..wateva...juz very admire him ler..haha!!is my dreams guy.. muaks..if got chance really wanna tackle him..hohoho!! even if be his fren only i edi very happy..next time muz use hp to capture him.. opps...am i too over..?later my boy kill me..haha!! but i oso got tell HIM about tis..n i oso shows tat i very admire tat guy..even HE ask who more leng zai i oso say if both of them stand together.HE hav to stand aside..haha!!! but HE no angry or jealous..hohoho~coz HE is too confidence to himself de.. -_-" n HE oso noe i only dare to kap..not dare to action.. -_-'' T_T

me looking forward to meet my buddies next week!
miss miss o~no one can absent!


~wish me n HIM hApPy 2 yEaRs N 8 mOnThS AnNiVeRsArY~
luv HIM always.. muaks!

My Heart Pain Pain er...

At last i can online...these few days cant connect to USMHotspot.. so cant on9..but luckily cant on9 ler..then only i can concentrate type my assignments..haha!

Today i check out stepz's blog...after read her blog..sincerely...really not feeling good... i don noe how to explaine...juz feel bad n guilty n a lil bit jealous oso...

juz wanna tell her tat although frens cant meet very often or keep in touch always...but i bliv once bcm ur fren, forever fren...erm..my english kinda broken...but hope u all understand wat i mean...

i feel guilty coz since form 6, me n her not always hang out edi..i get a new gang of buddies... i admit tat i seldom concern her...really sorry for tat...last time i think myself very understand her..but recently (act not recently, is since last year ) i found out tat i edi not d 1 who understand her well...but in my heart i still very luv her..n i think me n her frenship r strong enuf..is d type tat although wont hang out always but everytime meet oso got many things to chat n crap..n i really glad tat she din boycott me coz being like tis...i really glad for it! really glad coz she still remain as my buddies whenever i need her...( being selfish...so bad~)
another thing is until now i not yet giv her last year birth present~ wat kind of me huh! bad bad bad~ but she treat me very well..help me whenever i need..aarrgh....think more i really wanna be crazy liao coz being so bad...

i feel jealous coz although last time 3 of us r triplet...nowadays i kinda got d feeling tat i m not edi..n both of u r d duplet.. i cant blame anyone.. is faith.. things will change while d time is passing n passing...anyway...no matter how...u guys r always my buddies..forever n never end...

juz same like my another gang of buddies...i mean shwu wenn n win si n yen yen they all.. i really appreciate every frenship i having....n i really feel great n full of hapiness coz got a lot of frens support me..n treat me well. (for me more than 2 is a lot edi~haha~)


to my frens n buddies....
all of us r growing up...we ll hav our own life n hav to work hard to achieve wat we wan... juz wanna tell all of u tat even we less contact...frens r frens..buddies r still buddies....will never change in my heart until d last breath of my life...even we had arguement before or maybe in d future.. once i treat u as buddy..is forever my buddy.. sincerely from Esther Sam Yih Fung!

Oh man...

Yesterday i dreams 4 number, 6185. I m not sure that whether should buy the number anot...so i ask HIS opinion..HE say buy la..buy 'small small'..RM1. then i oklo..i wanna 'bao zi' but 'bao zi' is RM24..then i juz giv up this thinking coz worry later ll waste money..

juz now while i m sleeping..HE morning call me...(yesterday i ask de). then he told me that that number got kena! but...only if u 'bao zi' la... OH MAN.... so so so am gan n zha dou...n HE said HIS mom, dad, aunty n even HIS colleague also got buy...but all oso no 'bao zi'... wuwuwu!!! so bad de la..spread this news.. luckily got kena although not exactly d number..if not i really malu coz make them waste money...(but now seem like no diff.. T_T)

Ai...if i 'bao zi' i ll get RM200 leh! although not many but can help me buy a new MP3 or MP4 leh!! wuwuwu...really think tat d number is a present from god to buy a new MP3 or 4 to HIM... OH GOSH... wuwuwuwuwu.... miss the MP3 leh... return back to me la..

Now is sunday morning..my room mate went to church edi..i m alone...so cham.. but good oso..nobody disturb me on9 n do my assign..haha!!
ai...later hav to wash clothes..(this is my daily job..) so sien la.. so good if there is washing machine tat is FREE to wash...

Lonely nya.....


Just now I went pasar malam wif my frens..actually today edi very moody coz lost d MP3.. but after chat wif HIM i m quite okay edi..so i oso ask myself don think about it again..be happy..n i decide to go pasar malam buy many many food to eat..after having our thai nasi goreng, we went to a fruits stall..aiseh..now hav to choose n buy fruits ourselves.. macam aunty.. then suddenly raining!oh gosh...i haven't da bao anything for my supper leh!(nowadays like to eat supper coz always very late only oioi, hungry ler..haha) then we quickly buy some bread n rush to d nearby shoplot...but on d way to d shoplot, suddenly become heavy rains..n of course,i m wet enuf..on my way running, i feel...LONELY..n clear tat there is no one to take care of me...only myself..alone here..wat can i do is juz to be..tougher..n tougher...there is no turning back..but as a normal gal,i really hope if there is someone here can take good care of me..always be together wif me..wat i mean is someone tat can borrow his shoulder whenever i need..HERE..not far away in KL...wat kind of me..having bad thinking..


Juz now i chat wif mun mun, she oso same same wif me..feel lonely...we chat quite a lot ler.. n i feel better...as she say..study hard n don think too much.. is not easy to avoid d feeling of lonely.. but try lor...


GAMBATEH NEH...
me looking forward to have a gathering wif my buddies...hope can make it n no one r absent...muaks!! miss n lup u all nia...

wuwuwu.....i lost HIS MP3...is a gift from HIS Japan's cousin brother..i even don noe when i lost it....wuwuwu....
few days ago still wif me de..now i cant find it edi...who stole it wo...i din bring out leh...
muz be some one stole it from my room...!! wuwuwu.... so sorry to HIM..din protect HIS things good good..wuwuwu...so sad la!!! hav to buy a new wan...although HE don mind...but i muz buy a new wan for HIM de...

ai...make me no mood to do my assignment liao....so moody ler....

but i feel warm oso..coz HE din blame me or scold me..juz ask me be careful...take good care in everything...juz now we chat a lot...besides my buddies...HE is d one who really support me n understand my attitude very well...so great tat having HIM as my....

although sometimes i will put temper on HIM..but HE never scold me back...juz will try to remove my attention to other things..haha! such a clever guy...n sorry ya..

hey, i really need YOU to be with me..YOU r the 1st person i think of whenever there is something happen..even there is nothing happen...YOU r d one i always miss...

Really miss my form 6 buddies very much... very very much! miss d time tat we always study together, play together, yam cha, shopping, take sticker photo, n fool each other!! haha... we r d most noisy gang in our class but results is quite good oso...n i m proud of this..(of course i m not d one clever de la...kekeke) 100% crazy while playing n serious while studying...miss d feeling while we support each other n advise each other when got any problem...

Yesterday shit shit sms say i din contact her..wat la..she is d one who din sms me...i got contact her thru friendster de leh...den she say she very good coz she is busy wif her exam still sms me..n becoz of tis reason she ask me to treat her one meal! oh man...really a 'clever' gal o...not bad..she still remain her attitude..never change..haha!!!coz last time she oso like to 'wat' ppl to treat her meal or yam cha de...i din reply her coz i noe there r no ending sms argue wif her about this... coz tat time i m busy wif my assignment too!!

Yesterday nite when i online i meet my 2 buddies tat now studying in spore..seng seng n mun mun..one is NTU n another is NUS...no doubt tat their results r very good den only can futher their study in spore...n i chat wif seng seng thru microphone..long time din hear his voice..still remain d flirty voice..haha!!! at first wanna invite mun mun talking wif us oso but seng seng say if 3 person den cannot chat thru microphone edi..den juz nvm lo... they r having their tough life coz sporean 'kia su' ma...so everyone oso excellent in study..damm stressful ler...i think even if i got chance to study there i oso edi come back M'sia coz i m not clever n lazy..hehe!!! aiseh... think too much...coz i never had a chance oso...haha!!! anyway..now study in USM oso not too bad..juz hav to face malays everyday.. -.-''

gambateh ya my buddies...support u all o~

Today during my Teknik Berfikir tutorial class...my tutor told me that my exam paper that i took yesterday are missing!!! oh gosh...never thought this thing will happen to me! There are many people taking tat paper..therefore our tutor asked us pass up d paper by course...n i m the first ten of my coursemates to pass up! but y..today she told me tat my paper r MISSING? although is JUZ a mid term exam n ONLY 15% ...but oso very important to me! erm...i admit tat i din do d paper very well coz lack of time..but i OSO TRIED MY BEST TO DO THE BEST!! My tutor said she will find again...hope she can find it ler...is really weird if i m d only wan who lost the answer sheets...

When i tell HIM,HE say good..!!! -.-'' coz i got another chance to do better..herm...HE is juz..too positive..haha!!! >,< maybe HE is right but i cant think so positively la..coz..lazy la..hav to write many in that paper leh!! some more hav to crack my mind again to think how to write a...not easy man... plus,this week i m damm damm damm busy with my assignment n others exam...edi very stressful liao la..

sigh...these few days only can sleep at midnite...become a real panda liao lo...aiseh..don think so many liao..headache...i bliv...everything is faith..so if d paper really lost... juz tell myself i get another chance to do better..is lucky man...but if lost edi n i hav no chance to retake the exam..i m goin to 'curse' d paper coz fooling me like this! haha...